#199
When I practice receptivity, I can feel all my defenses and protections fall away. It is exhilarating!
It is also terrifying.
Then I realize that the terrifying part has to do with having stepped into the future. Or more accurately, attempting to step into the future. It’s anxiety about what it might mean to be so free of defenses. When I stay in the present, in the experience of the fall away, there is only exhilaration and wonder.
Maybe there’s a lesson here about stepping out of present time. Why do it?
How much of our fear, anxiety, depression, apprehension, disappointment, etc. is the result of stepping out of present time?